On my journey to conquer fear - a mid year review with the Pole Dancing Bloggers Association.
At some point in life you have to get angry and say, “I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF BEING AFRAID ALL THE TIME”. It’s not possible to live without fear and anxiety, of course, but it is possible to conquer it. You have to step outside of your comfort zone, get angry, get focused, breath deep. It’s a hard thing to do and it is always too easy to run back to safety, to that warm bed or that safe computer desk. But it’s always worth it. Every single time I push myself to do something that scares me there are rewards.
Next up…first aerial hoop performance…at height…with no crash mat. Wish me luck…
So this showed up on my Instagram feed the other day, she’s a famous pole dancer, was she ever a stripper? Her and some chick named maddiesparkledancer have been wearing shit that says this. I believe they’re from Australia.
If they weren’t ever strippers and they’re wearing stuff that says that I have some major problems with that. But maybe they are/were and I need to shut the hell up. Anyone know?
Joel Madden called them stripper gymnasts and basically slagged off pole dancing when they performed on The Voice Australia. It’s just in response to his dickish attitude.
Although at the time of the controversy I was a bit like, what’s the problem with calling them stripper gymnasts, why are they offended? But I don’t think it was just that, his attitude was overly negative to pole and questioned why they were even there.
I need to tell you all something. Dropping unhealthy habits can improve your physical health, but dropping the dead weight in you life changes your mental health drastically. And what I mean by that is the negative people in your life. The ones that hold you back and make it so that you feel less than wonderful. I dropped some massive dead weight in my life in January this year and I have never felt/looked better. People see the confidence increase and the bright and shiny person you become. Be kind to yourself and drop the people that bring you down.
On top of that, fix those bad habits, find something you love to do and do it all the time. Those three things will change your life. You don’t owe anyone anything. Your happiness and mental health is what is most important. When you do this you will find your people, your tribe, your family. Your journey and path in life.
Pink and silver hoop I made for burlesque performer Peach Schnaps.
Loving teaching hula hooping so far. Need to work on my syllabus some more though and ensure I am teaching things in the correct order and that everything is attainable. Might be starting a third class soon.
- Holly: Everyone knows about fairies...
- Andy: Are you calling my daughter a slut?
- Holly: ...If the fairy shoe fits!
- ..some time later...
- Holly: Well, I am sorry I called Adilyn a slut, I don't even believe in that word slut, it shames female sexuality and I am against that 100%.
Think I am in shock now. Got so much to do but just kinda sitting here unsure of where to start.
Want to treat myself to cider but I have to teach in a few hours.
Passed my fourth driving test with 4 minors! Last time I had 1 minor but 3 serious faults, oopps.
All I could think the entire time was, “I AM NOT DOING A FIFTH TEST, I AM NOT DOING A FIFTH TEST!”
Luckily I had a bay park at the beginning so could then relax a bit, my emergency stop was a bit poop but good enough to pass me. FUCKING HELL YES NEVER HAVE TO DO A HORRIBLE ANXIETY INDUCING DRIVING TEST EVER AGAIN (unless I do my bike one in the future).
Performed at a ceroc event last night. Probably the biggest or second biggest audience I have performed for but first time I have performed pole on such a high up big stage. I’m a bit scared of heights so looking down from up the top of the x-stage was scary. Used my routine from the competition, wasn’t as neat or whatever and I had to adapt the floorwork for the x-stage and the one pole but a non-pole audience wouldn’tve noticed anything.
Had so much fun watching everyone dance. Ceroc looks fun - it’s like a jive salsa mix but it’s quite relaxed, there aren’t really steps. But everyone seemed to be having so much fun spinning around and dancing with their partners. Wish Daniel would stop being so insecure so I could drag him to something like that.
Someone said this is a forward mill wheel?
This is the first time today I have ever been able to push back up. Usually always land on the knee - PROGRESS!
Had an amazing time at Village Pump Festival today, mostly hula hooping. Almost got foot hooping, shoulder roll to chest stand down boom! Video soon. I tried today but got tired by the time I went to film it and it wouldn’t work any more.